Really starting to enjoy my blog site

I'm really starting to enjoy posting on my blog site. I'm increasing my vocabulary, spelling and grammer, while pouring my issues on electronic paper. I'm also sharpening my word play, LMFAO...Me time was much needed, I've had time to miss and love, I've. Had time to indulge in deep conversation with minimal hermano, time is on my side. I feel refreshed, rejuvenated, rehabilitated because most of all my mind needed to be relocated. I woke up around 12pm for the first time in over a year...SMH, all work and no play. I'm already regretting Monday through Friday because I'm starting small on me time, I don't want to send myself into shock...LMFAO. I get a little to free when I spend too much time with myself. I start thinking I'm diplomatic and sovereign LMFAO ROTF Mc Hammer uugh *my rosay voice. It's difficult when your comfortable, but eventually its time to change the mattress . Think of it as waking up on the wrong side of the bed everyday, it's time for a change, time to evolve. I learned a word that grew on me over the years, aggrandize, a verb meaning to increase the power, status or wealth of. 2. Enhance the reputation of (someone) beyond what is justified by the facts. Synonyms: enlarge-magnify-increase-extend-amplify-augment. This is a strong word like ambition, integrity, intriguing...I first learned this word reading literature, it aggrandized on me and inflicted some of my success. I became to believe I was the word, I am aggrandize, I am....I think in my sub conscious this word still aggrandizes. Now I get depressed when I'm not being productive or evolving, it bothers me that I have to constantly be participating in something....anything, SMH *pause. I'm done with the unnecessary, I'm moving on, instead of arguing and fighting I'm thinking and making an intelligent decision. Some people are the way they are and their's people who think they can change them. In reality you can't, some people are stuck the way the are and are the way they are. Confusing? Yes, this is why some people know how to pick and choose their battles and walk away, while others react off of confusion violently. I still tend to react violently but I'm learning to talk it out, last resort is to walk it out, SMH....Life has taught me that nothing is forever, work hard for the things you want and your children or grandchildren future. Your future already has an end....your next generation just has longer than you, so why be selfish? LMFAO....Yea it is what it is and I hope I live forever, wherever or whatever is next...

WTF am I going to do with my life

WTF am I going to do with my life, every day its something. I should talk to jae phats about starting a reality series...SMH. I wake up twisting because its how I cope and I twist before I sleep so I can sleep. I've been a chief for over 10 years and I wasn't raised to be a quitter. Its hard when you made your self ....I.M.O.K. See I'm not a P.O.M.E, I'm a Product Of My Mind. I remember being told consecutively "you can be whatever or whoever you want" LMFAO SMH. Sometimes I'm CEO, COO, Prez and Vice, Hustla, Monster, Playa, Go getter, whatever, etc, etc. As soon as I learned people lie like its money I realized every dollar isn't a good dollar, SMH. I'm a libra so I understand life was created with two sides. I've read the bible and it says something in the sense of God doesn't like you to be warm, he rather you hot or cold...I guess God doesn't like me. I feel there should be a balance, you should be versatile, you shouldn't just be one way. If half the world was hot and the other half cold than the cold would be with cold and visa versa. We would still be segregated, black and white, is this how God wants it...I live my life on principals but sometimes I have to be flexible for some. I live my life off my thoughts but sometimes I have to think for others. Murder isn't a hard thing to do, getting away with it is....Today is based on yesterday and tomorrow is a gift that doesn't have to be unwrapped. Tomorrow is promised to no one, I try to do right by others so that I do have a chance at tomorrow. My greatest blessing every day is My Life...I don't know what its like to die but I know what its like to live...Grab these jewels*pause LMFAO...Every breathe is precious and valuable, that's why there's some people who want to take it. They want to take it for whatever reason, whether free or for a fee. Its the way the world is...two days ago I came across a hypothesis. When your at home don't you walk back and forth or around it? When you go out sometimes you make a 360 and end up back home, so isn't your home your circle? You are your square and your home is your circle. Stay in your circle and be careful who you let in your circle. We live in a world with snakes, rats, crooks, menatlist and successful people. Experince was meant to be used as one of your resources, everyone is not the same but may have similar traits and can be put in the same category as the previous person. WTF am I going to do with my life, LMFAO SMH.

Me time

Today was crazy but enlightening, I discovered on Sept 6 2012 that the reason why I've been in a slump is because I have not had "me time" in almost a year. I know this may sound ridiculous to some but to others it's a fact of life. "Me time" is crucial in a relationship, I use to stress sex and communication. Now I understand with no separation there will be constant friction, SMH I shouldve stayed in school...I'm not LMFAO ROTF...I'm saying WTF OMG SMH............Sorry but anyway like I was typing, "Me time" is crucial in a relationship because all day your constantly in someone's face. Whether your on public transportation, bumper to bumper(pause smh), grocery shopping, working, exercising at a gym, movies or participating in any social and outgoing activity. Socializing doesn't allow you to fully get your thoughts together because you're constantly thinking of what to say next while engaging in respectful listening. People in a position of power do this on a regular basis and may have mastered listening, talking, thinking and planning 24/7 thus have you event planners.....Even they need a time out, deep meditation is stressed throughout life from streets to books which both care deep knowledge....that's another post, LMFAO I'm learning blogger lingo....ROTF.....SMH. Everything happens for a reason, nothing goes wrong it's just the season. I'm trying hard to prevent a dry season that I've already experience hands on prior to this post.

For the people who do understand "me time" we have the challenges and obstacles of defending our beliefs to the ones who don't understand "me time." If this challenge takes place during a mutual relationship, arguments can occur depending on the couple. This is another hands on experience, SMH, if whom every is the believer than must A.) Defend their beliefs or B.) Tuck their tail. Now I believe the answer is A, but it's not that simple. Choosing answer A leaves you with two more choices, be either 1.)Assertive or 2.)Passive. Now you have a decision A1or A2 or just B, LMFAO...The key to this door is to know your companion, you can't be  A1 to an A1 but everything else can fly, SMH. I know A1 OMG WTF SMH how can I not. No you can but be ready for the drama...reality tv

Ventilation

Love and hip hop is crazy especially how Stevie J put on. I thought Stevie's game was tight until the "reunion". Then I remembered Mimi is a sucker for love and Joseline is a Hustla. Stevie is a good investor though, 2 women 4 pockets, LMFAO. Mimi probably will tax his ass too, why do women do that shit? I understand the woman who don't get no help, at the end of the day a man with a child is father. I'm talking about woman who trap men and/or don't deserve shit, and the ones who just do it out of hate...Hate Hate Hate...SMH. Haters are another story, why hate on the next man? Even worse, why hate on a man you don't know?..WTF. I personally get motivated, I dont even hate ratsI just despise them. Hate is a disease that spreads through the whole body and infects the brain, such as depression or ignorance. It usually infects 1 out of every 5 people and comes in different levels, it's contagious too. It's not like blood to blood, it's more like radiation too much of it will effect you in the long run...We'll I'm still working on my temper and control, tonight it was tested once again. I think a way through this is remembering an issue is not your first and won't be your last...SMH. I mainly have a problem with females because that's the majority of my friends and associates. I really surround myself with really emotional ones. It's just the way life goes, another thing that can't be controlled...SMH. We'll I need some spiritual uplifting so I can sleep being that I got blue balls...SMH

Dvr appreciation

I appreciate dvr's for being able to rewind and making sure they actually did have scenes like this picture in movies. #fistfullofdollars LMFAO who dies looking like this...

My first blog...

Okay so this is my first blog and I don't know how dedicated I'm going to really be about this. Right now I'm taking advantage of technology, I love 2012, Word. I can lay on my back and watch the food network while I post a blog. I don't understand how some people can be bored unless their low on funds because that's no fun. I always have something to do, sometimes I have too much to do but now I don't. I'm just relaxing next to my beautiful friend, "Kettle Cooked" she is so awesome, thinking of how I can step outside the box that was designed for me. I've been getting frustrated and realized WTF I'm I getting upset for. Now I feel great, I still get a little irritated but it's a slow process, my confidence level is extremely to high. Sometimes I wish I could turn it down but my confidence doesn't comprehend rejection...I said it's a slow process LMFAO. I don't know anything about blogging so I'm going to have to do some research on my high tech search engine "Google". As for the name LMFAO ROTF OMG WTF SMH, this blogger site wouldn't let me pick a name...WTF so I expressed myself and TADA I got through. We'll I just rose out of my comfortable coffin and rushed this blog about to eat breakfast. Later